a new season
Friends, I have sat down to write this blog so many times. In fact, a month ago, I actually wrote my "re-introduction back to my blog" post and somehow the blog crashed before I got to save it. I gave it to God and decided maybe it wasn't quite time to write again.
The seasons are changing here in Nashville & I am feeling more like myself these days. So, I think it's time to write down some thoughts about this year that I really couldn't articulate until now. My absence has not been without reason & although I don't feel obligated to pour my guts out to the internet, I do hope to connect with those who follow my blog and my work. It's close to impossible for me to just post images without commentary so I haven't done it. When I write, it comes from the heart, and my heart has been in a strange place this year. But, I am ready now.
I came into this year with so much gumption, zest & a fresh outlook on business. I had really high hopes for all the things I planned to accomplish. But, life took a turn shortly after the new year with the unexpected passing of Eric's dad. I've wanted to post an update but every time I've sat down to do it, I haven't been able to find the words. This season has been tough for Eric & me. Grief is a strange beast. It comes so abruptly, without warning. It's been a season that our counselor says most couples do not experience until years of commitment are under their belts. We only had one. So, whereas I'd hoped to focus on my business this year, that focus quickly shifted to my personal life.
I was in Nashville all of 6 months before Eric came into my life. We began dating at a time when I was finding my footing in a new state, developing new friendships, learning how to live without any safety net or secure foundation here & on top of that, figuring out how to bring my business to a new-to-me market. SO much transition has happened in my brief two years in Tennessee. I feel 10 years older because of it all. Yet, even despite how hard these transitions have been, I have seen the Lord's goodness (even while in the midst of questioning that goodness). This time has made me wiser & that wisdom has now become invaluable to me. Of course, it has not come without experiencing hardships & sacrifice. Sacrifice to self mostly...a painful, beautiful process. I am still learning how to *imperfectly* love people well despite my own fear & anxieties. Indeed, I am a work in progress!
I have learned to be okay with not being connected to my business 100% this year. I have learned that it's okay to have grace for yourself and allow yourself the time you need to process life experiences & transitions. I have learned that seeking professional guidance while experiencing a confusing season is incredibly beneficial. It's healthy to have this kind of outside perspective to help you navigate when you can't see things clearly & emotions are raw.
I owe a lot of thanks to my sweet friends & family for showing up & weathering this season with us. You've all helped to see the good in times of grief, so thank you.
And thank you to those who continue to support my business even when I've been absent on here! I promise to be better at updating from now on. I have a lot of plans to post in the coming days & several announcements, too! Here's to a new season (my absolute favorite one at that)!