(Rusty on our walk at Radnor Lake)
rest: peace of mind or spirit
I've been hearing this word quite a bit in my spirit lately so I don't find it coincidence that our pastor used the word today in his sermon. He challenged us to rest - and not the kind where you get off social media & binge watch Netflix. He meant TRUE rest in Christ - to rest & spend time with Him.
To be honest, several months leading up to the new year I'd been hearing the word rest. It got me thinking about how little rest I truly give myself. I believe most of it stems from the pressure I put on myself to perform or keep up with marketing my business. My fear is in remaining relevant or the need to post my life or work every day & I put a lot of pressure on myself because of it. In an attempt to remain relevant however, I forfeited authenticity. I found myself performing for an audience in hopes to gain followers so that my work is out there more. I used to love notifications (turned those off last year in an effort to find balance) but soon enough that became overwhelming. And for what? I've now been on social media (Facebook era) for over 11 years. That is A LOT of my life. A lot of my life shared with so many people who aren't actually my friends in real life. And in curating photographs in hopes that this audience likes them, I began to see a shift. I caved to the fear of missing out at the expense of my actual life. I looked to social media to fill up my cup. So much of my life was taking place with a phone in my hand or through a screen. I would literally wake up and check social media first thing every day. I used to have a balance but in the past few years this has not been the case. Gosh, I hate admitting that! I've felt a tug for a few months now to just lay it down. Literally - lay that phone down!
So, this year I am re-training myself to start each day fresh & in the Word - a place I used to begin every day. It's amazing how much better my days are when I begin them this way. I don't want to forfeit these moments in my life any longer. I also want to give up social media for a stint so that I get back to posting about things that I love. Writing & posting photography for the sake of wanting to. I am no longer buying into the marketing schemes that tell me I'm irrelevant if I'm not overly sharing every detail of every day or engaging an audience on social media every day. I want to actively participate in my life & pursue my passions out of love (and not likes) once again.
I'm getting back to the basics. Back to relying on faith once again to fill up my cup. So, rest I will...in an effort to find peace in mind and spirit.